Fear to write

To write I fear today
To write my pen does fail
For all words that did mean
All that I ever feel
No longer does make sense
Or do they?
Well to write I do not fear
What I fear is if I shall
Dream the dreams again
The dreams my words did speak
The dreams that did fade
With all my words
So do I fear to write?
Do I fear to dream again?
Or do I fear to accept that
I have not stopped dreaming
In the first place